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Skinned Knees and Job Searches

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Spent  a good part of the day at a friend’s house job searching online. On the way up her steps, I tripped, fell headlong and skinned up both knees pretty bad. I have not done that since childhood, and the pain was so intense at first I had to just lay there for a minute and let it subside. Despite being a good friend I’ve know for years, I didn’t tell her of my spill. Somehow in my mind I equated my fall with a failure, on top of my “failure” in the job world, and I didn’t want to be a pain.  I sat there and “suffered in silence” for 3 hours, praying the blood wouldn’t seep through my slacks. (It never seemed to hurt this bad when I fell off my bike as a kid.)

Without being melodramatic, I think today’s minor embarrassment is a metaphor for the feelings that people can encounter when laid off.  Something happens to you totally out of your control, yet you blame yourself, beat yourself up, do a number on your self-confidence. Rather than reach out for support,you choose to suffer in silence.

To all those out there experiencing layoffs, it is not a reflection of you, its not your fault. It can’t change your character, your nature, your spirit, unless you allow it to.

Off to apply more triple antibiotic cream…

Written by Krista Summitt

November 24, 2008 at 8:14 pm